i shudder to go to school!

now that the deed is done, i reallt shudder to go to school..the next 2 months of my life will be pure hell....i am definately going to get shit.....my p used some very strong words....bad to move on......not ethical to move to a another school nearby.....played her out....horrible person......never think abt the company......but i am grateful...for all my friends around me.......when i sent out smses to everyone telling them abt my current situation...they have nothing but words of encouragement and support for me...i am grateful to have them in my life......as i see my grandpa growing weaker by the day, and after seeing him losing his memory and mental capacity day by day, i want to tell him...kong kong it is ok....if it is difficult, you can let go.....we will be fine.....like what my sisters say, kong kong is very lucky....he is not dying of any illness...he is dying of old age.....when u are old, ur body functions just shuts down one by one like a machine.....this is what is happening to him.......i also hope God gives my cousins strength to carry on...even though i am not close to him, he is my father's brother after that.....but i guess my uncle's death will be a release to him and his family......he has beeen awfully sick for quite mnay years already and his medical bills are causing his family a lot of strain...perhaps this is God telling me to treasure life...and treasure my everyday.....treasure ppl...sigh...i just hope that my last 2 months in the school wont be too bad.....