updates

wow! my last post was in March...honestly there are too many things going on in my life that i really have neither the time nor the energy to blog about it...perhaps i am growing older....blogging seems to be something for the young....or perhaps it is because after my ipad, i have become too lazy to switch on my laptop to do stuff at home....or perhaps after a long day at work, i refuse to switch on the computer and look at the screen again....haaa...lazy lah here is the summary of what happened in 6 mths work: definitely way more hectic....it does not help that as the workload gets crazier, the ppl too get crazier....loads of office politics going on these days....trying ways to stay out and work around it...it is tiring and it makes the days at work even more exhausting..but i guess this is something we all cant run away from...politics are everywhere....despite everything i am still grateful for a handful bunch of ppl who i stay with....we help to motivate each other, gossip abt stuff and basically stay sane when ppl are acting out dramas around us...well i am looking to my year end work review to see how my increment and bonus go...hopefully it will be good considering the enrollment is good this year home:good news..i am going to get my flat soon...but i must say it is mixed feelings sometimes...i mean i hate staying with my mil but at the same time, it seems such a huge responsibility to be in charged of an entire house now....it also means that i wont have dinner ready when i come home.. with the arrival of amber in the family, there has been ups and downs...i must say that i keep heading to the baby section these days to buy things for amber but sometimes i do feel taken for granted...like for example when ppl comment that my gift is not good enough or not atas enough.....but seeing amber really opens up my eyes to having a kid..i see my sis changing from a lazy and dirty girl to being a concerned and meticulous mother...and the costs involved!! the time and effort!! the lack of sleep!!....haaa...scary but this is something i would want to try when my house is ready.....keeping my fingers crossed..i do feel that daddy and me and now stable in our relationship as husband and wife and is ready to move on to father and mother.....

this is bad

i have been so uninspired to update this blog...seems like it is really depressing to write the things down that is happening in my life...this yr is really bad for dogs i feel...despite me praying so much, things have been going haywire since the year started....firstly work has been really bad...not in terms of workload but in terms of human relationships......the workload i am more or less in control and can deal with it but the crazy people are the ones that are stressing me out...i got this colleague who is so sensitive...everything that u say or she hears is a huge conspiracy theory..in fact everyone is pretty irritated with her at her and have been trying to tell her not to be so emo.....it is frustrating trying to be patient ard her or else if u have offended her, she will be on to your back..which is far worse....trying to be low key and say less to her...i think she is suffering from depression...auds, u know what i mean right?.....she is like a psychopath in school and making our lives miserable....no prizes for guessing that she is my new partner in class which means we need to work very closely...too closely in fact...shit!!!

this stress that i have been experiencing at work is causing me sleepless nights....i cant seem to fall asleep till about one plus two in the morning...and the next day is a nightmare....the cycle again repeats....i look forward to weekends only because that is when i can sleep in and catch up on lost sleep....my eye bags are showing too....skin of course protesting...sigh....all because of one crazy woman at work.....health is much worse...feeling sick nearly every week....probably is mind over body.....oh well...hang in there....i will make it through..

omg! last update three months

this is how lazy i am now.....honestly the past three mths have been nothing but crazy for me so i really did not have any energy to blog abt it..here are the updates if u are still reading

work:
the past three mths have been a torture...not only in terms of workload coz there was the concert and the usual end of the yr portfolios to be returned/ preparation for next yr but it was human envt that was crazy....firstly my partner in class decided to be a corpse in school...basically she was physically there but yet not there at all...there was a bitter final showdown between her and the management which resulted in her departure..and it was a vicious cycle..whenever the management hounded her for things, she would be in a bad mood which resulted in her not doing anything in class...like my boss said before, she thought that this teacher is matured and able to run like a horse so she gave this horse the freedom to do whatever she wanted with no checking..at the end of the day, she realised that this horse is actually a donkey in disguise...i did not want to comment much but i think it takes two to clap...my boss basically gave her too much trust and freedom that she abused it....basically the donkey was just displaying traits of donkeys from a certain place so my boss had too much faith in the PR word...
then we had another teacher who was MIAing nearly every other week coz her son or her will be sick...she is crowned the mc queen coz she has exhausted all her leaves, childcare leaves, mc leaves etc...she is also now serving her notice coz she realised that she has to be there for her kid...again, my boss has too much faith in her by employing her in the first place when she has past records of not staying in a place for more than 6 mths...no doubt abt it she is a good teacher but no one will be able to endure a teacher who works only maybe 12 days in a mth...the rest are all unpaid leaves and mcs...i am not disputing that family and children shd come first but one shd have a certain level of responsibility towards work too...i have to keep covering her classes and she shd be glad that these are not local parents so they are really understanding when the class teacher is not there...pockets of drama unfolding here and there, it is a wonder that i am still alive and kicking...hopefully next yr will be much better for me....

home:
it is the usual story...mil good mood = nice to me, mil bad mood = no talking and black face....i am getting used to it and stop being too bothered abt it...anyway i want to remain hopeful that my hse is going to be ready by end of next yr then i can finally move out and be subjected to a different set of problems...haaa...time really flies...in jan i would have already stayed here for two yrs..wow! and i am still alive!

daddy:
i think we go through the usual stages of married life...from the excitement of being together everyday to now the usual routine of life...like any other couple, we quarrel abt the tiny things in life but i am happy that despite all the ups and downs, we still remain rooted to each other and enjoy each other's company...i am happy that at least we don't morph into two people doing their own things at home...we make it a point to watch the same drama serial together..do chores together...go out together...come home together... sleep at the same time..wake up at the same time....even when i am on leave like now, he makes sure that he leaves for work later and come home earlier to spend time with me...and in return i have to give him some freedom to go for his police duties twice a week at nights..guess that is married life....give and take.....

health:
still in a yoyo...i really need to be more discipline with my food intake..not too salty and not too sweet..then my weight wont fluctuate so much..recently i realised that jap food seems to work wonders for me...perhaps because jap food tend to be more mild tasting with no much extreme flavouring....it sure is hard work with choosing the right food...

well christmas is coming...my fav time of the yr...i am grateful of things that i have now and for the ppl ard me....next yr it is going to be challenging..i hope i will have enough energy to get through everything...and give me my hse soon!

on leave..

yes i am finally on my term break..this term has been hectic and i have been waiting so patiently for this break...wanted to do so many things at first but now it seems in the end, i have nothing much to do..other than a trip to the dentist for a follow up check up of my wisdom tooth and a good pedicure, i realised that i have nothing much more to accomplish...so it is now down to just cleaning up my room for cny in advance..which means that closer to cny i should be pretty free...daddy was telling me to just sleep more, rest more...basically just slack around but somehow i find that very hard to do...i just feel it is a waste of time to just lie there and do nothing....sigh..bad for health really if i dun know how to relax....but it is good to be away from all the dramas at work....i do miss my babies though...but hell, i do need time to get away from them....

recently the topic of having babies came up, i was shocked at first when daddy claimed that he did not want to have any kids....he loves kids so i was shocked really when he said that he did not want to have any coz kids very expensive...most importantly i sensed that he was not ready to change his lifestyle for a kid...right now there is loads of freedom...we go prawning nearly every weekend...we go out in the middle of the night...when the baby comes, all these have to really stop and i think that is what scares him....we did have a lengthy discussion about this and in the end, we have decided to still go ahead and try for one....but now the big question is when.....my flat is still not ready so now is a big fat no..when then??...sian...i hate growing up and make such decisions...

i have been lazy lately

it has been a really long time since i last blogged...been really lazy...whenever i feel like typing in my blog, i end up doing something else instead coz i am just too lazy to type...here are some updates for those of u who still bother reading my useless blog..

work: more or less still the same...there r the warring states still going on...on certain days, things can get really bad...some days r better..it is quite sickening sometimes when the bitching starts and they choose to tell me..i really dun know why they choose to tell me..izzit because they know my lips are pretty tight?..i dun know but honestly i dun really care what is going on in their lives...there are too many things happening in mine....workload wise ok..can still cope...recently there were two withdrawal cases coz parents decided to divorce and packed the children up and go home....sigh..poor kids

home: same prob with mil...certain days she is miss nice..certain days miss black face...same for my bro in law...he is one weird cookie..who wants to marry him...

health: bad bad....been really sick recently..may be because of the super duper cold air con in sch...it feels like i am in Antarctica sometimes....water retention problem much much better...i really need to watch my diet to ensure less fluctuations....

koala: we just celebrated his 31st birthday...it was a simple celebration only..now looking fwd to mine!!...

a vexing time for me at school

fights between teachers....i am not involved but it is still sian to go to school and see black faces....then i got to listen to stories..a will complain about b and b will complain about a...very sick to listen to all these at work especially when there is already so much that need to be done at school....next p. holiday is in week 5...looking fwd to it man..and it is friday tomorrow...good to be away from everything and just be with my daddy....wonders why ppl just cant stick to doing their own work...

it's been a long time

...since i last updated my blog...been quite busy at work (as usual) and at home too.....last friday, i went to extract my wisdom tooth...wanted to remove the upper and lower right wisdom teeth but in the end only remove the upper one coz according to the dentist, the lower one is too near to my nerves....it is a highly risky surgery and he did not want to do it...thereafter it is a series of referring me to other oral surgeons/ specialists to see if they can remove my lower wisdom tooth...the end result is the same: no one wanted to do it coz it was too risky...wasted all my time as well as money traveling from one place to another, taking x rays after x rays, consultation fees etc...and worst thing was that i already told school that i would most probably be on mc for seven days (that is what the dentist quoted me coz i would be doing surgery)..in the end, i was only given three days of mc for my upper tooth and had to use my annual leave instead..it was a total waste of annual leave coz number one, i did not have anything planned for this term break since i was going on surgery...usually if i know that i will be going on leave, i would actually plan to do my hair, nails, facial etc...in the end, my leave was spent visiting dentists for second opinions or rotting at home...totally boring...today is my last day before i go back to work tomorrow...well, i must admit that i did have a pretty good rest these few days coz i was in pain half of the time and spent most of my time glued to the bed...but the real bad thing about me is that i feel time at home must be spent wisely, so i also did a lot of cleaning during my leave since i cant go out...that must be my type a blood at work..the cannot relax blood..haaa....the good news out of all these hooha about my tooth is that i lost some weight..haa...coz simply i cant eat....haaa....anyway back to school means back to nonsense and back to mayhem again.....8 weeks more of school before my next term break again..tahan....but wait a minute, there is a p. holiday in week 2!....something to look forward to then...