a wake up call!

seems very funny....was chatting at li dan abt my career options and what are the possibilities for me....when suddenly she just stopped and said, "winnie, i think u have lost ur direction and become clouded."...quite shocked to hear this but after thinking it through, i realised the truth in her statement...at first i wanted to leave ke because i know it is super messy....even just after i started work, i already told myself that i wont stay more than 1 yr and want to leave before licensing in 2009....then i got really tired abt the working shifts and told myself i really need to leave because of the shitty working shifts...then there came rumours that ke is going to be sold and rather have already been sold.....i told myself then...ok now i must quickly get out of this place before i get retrench or get sold over to whatever place.....then the last straw was when mbt received some unfair treatment....i told myself then better leave than to stay in a place where the boss dun even bother abt it.....but then after i have officially tendered, i got swayed by his offers to make me stay....to get me to stay on, he even asked me what i was interested in doing and made a offer to let me try my hand at what i was interested in...plus my 4 interviews seem to be leading to no where....the offers that came in were nothing fanstatic... i guess this really made me a little confused....li dan told me not to consider boss's offer...after all she said it could be a ruse just to get me to stay on..whether his plans will materialise is another matter.....told me to stick to my guns and still leave and she is very confident that i will be able to find something better along the way...i wish i could be as optimistic like her....honestly i know that even if i stayed on, it will be entirely for the sake of having a job.....at the end of the day, the same problems will still exist...lousy working shifts...sch may be sold ..unfair treatment etc....is there any point in staying on then?....or shd i just stay on for the sake of the fact that i will be employed?...need advices....i feel so lost.....like li dan said, i am totally clouded already.....