relieved!

for all those who dun know what has happened these few days, let me tell u all abt it.....found a lump behind my ear quite a few weeks ago...thought it was just a pimple and ignored it....the lump grew bigger...showed my colleague on monday and she told me it was a funny colour..was very worried then and decided to go and see a doctor todae...been a rather emotional week worrying abt this lump...luckily the doctor said it was a cyst, benign swelling...not cancerous or life threatening but it will always remain there unless i go through a surgery to remove it.....not sure if i will want to do this surgery though....but very relieved that it is not cancer...was very grateful to my daddy for being so supportive and worried abt me..he would ask me every morning if the lump hurts or anything....he was really worried for me and even chided me for telling him only now....haaa...haaa at least i can safely conclude that he will most probably go through everything in life with me, in sickness and in health..even though i will pretend to be very gracious and self sacrificing and tell him to find another girl friend if i had cancer..u know like those tv shows...in reality i will probably go, "since i am dying then u will have to die with me!"...haaaa...anyway this is over....i just have to pray that no infection sets in for the lump...if not i will have to keep popping to the doctor to get antibiotics...
another thing that i did todae was to go gown shopping...first stop margaret brides...all i can say is that gown shopping is bad for one's self esteem....haaaa...every gown that u try on, u will received some less than flattering comments abt ur body...just like some pesky salesgirl at the clothes shop....anyway tried 5 different gowns....main problem...not tall enough....not skinny enough.....bust too big....she did mention that i actually have a very small waist....she said very nice curve line...just too big boobs so the gown is awkward because two things can happen...a) if boobs fit, waist area too loose...b)if waist area looks sleek and nice...boobs will be being squeezed alive..like those dairy cows when they are being milked..haaa....anyway i dun understand why most of the gowns are low backed...which means u can't wear a bra and my boobs will like according to newton's law of gravity, will head south...no, dun tell me abt nu bra..i dun trust those silicon thingy...plus i dun think they give ample support...haaa..anyway daddy went gown fitting with me...everytime i came out of the fitting room, he would take a peek...then when the lady walks away, he will then mouth to me how he feels abt the gown....most of the time he will mouth this "u.g.l.y"...it is always nice to have a bf who is so 'honest'...i thought every bride is suppose to look her prettiest in her wedding gown...somehow does not work for me....anyway margaret advised me to go for made to measure...no point going for an ill fitting gown if it does not show off my best feature which is my 'nice curves'...blah....i think she just ran out of any nice things to say....i mean she cant say that i have nice toes right??...oh well....next sat i shall go to another place to look see look see...hope to find a better place....