funeral over..

yes it is over...now that everything is all over, i really do feel his absence...when i left ma ma's house, i almost shouted out bye bye kong kong as usual when we went home....but today, i went to his photo to say bye kong kong, see you next week quietly....it is just so weird without him at home....we collected his ashes today too and placed him in the church..just feels so weird to leave him there and that my kong is just reduced to a pile of ashes...i just realised something, he will not make it for my wedding...he was actually so excited about it...kept telling me that he will give me one k of hong bao....i really hope ma ma is ok.....i think things will be harder for her...