less worries..more smiles

hmm..this titles sounds interesting and rather thoughtful...was up the whole night...could not sleep coz i was worrying abt work....honestly i think i give myself too much pressure...must learn to take it easy....bet u guys dun believe it, but i was up worrying whether i can cope with teaching 2 sessions of classes in the new sch and whether i will have time to do the portfolios, lesson plans and other knick knacks....it is really silly to be worrying about such stuff esp when the sch is not operational yet...but that is how i am...i really think too much and worry too much...i literally had to sit up and clear my mind and settle down before i can properly have a good night rest.....i really hate myself for being such a control freak and a worrier...i really wish that i can actually be more spontaneous and less a worrier...so anyway this morning, my boss called me to settle some details and i took the chance to ask her to clear my doubts...she said i will need to take 2 sessions a day but only 3 times a week...so that is fine..on the other 2 days, i just need to assist the other sessions if needed or i can stick to doing my own work..she mentioned that she will plan for teachers to have enough break time to do their own planning...well, it is good to hear such assurance from the horse's mouth...at least i would not be so overstretched...jumping from childcare envt to an enrichment envt is really quite daunting for me...coz childcare centres tend to be more home based and routine care laden...the pace of work in the childcare centre is definitely slower than an enrichment centre...but i feel it will be a good change for me coz i will be deemed as a proper teacher rather than a nanny..dun know if it makes sense to say that on one hand, i look forward to getting out of the stigma of being a nanny and yet on the other hand, i fear that i wont be able to cope with the new faster pace...i am lucky in that sense that boss is still very for staff welfare and she is quite open to discussion,...i guess that is one of the perks being the pioneer of the centre...today's morale of the story...i need to tell myself to worry less...whatever will be will be...dun think too much and pressure myself....like the fortune teller told me in my face, "why u worry so much?".....yes....remind me ppl k...