let me rant a little k

yup....i am trying to clear my mind...loads of things going through my mind now....feeling a little confused so decided to type it out to clear my mind a little...sorry ppl if u find that this post dun make sense...it is not supposed to make sense...at least for u....boss called me...renovations completed earlier...will be starting work physically in early feb and not after chinese new yr as planned....thrown off balanced...i am not one who can adapt well to new changes..i love routine...everything must be same...which means in 2 weeks time, i will be going to work work...physically...sian...how do others do it..i really admire ching...she was at home so for long but when she started work, i did not even hear her once lament once about adapting to a new routine..i know i am a loser....perhaps later i will sms her to ask her how she did it...to help myself feel better and cope with things better..my thoughts...all messed up..i am moving over this weekend...new changes to routine and adapting to a new home and then one week later, i have to cope with another change, going to school....shit...too many things going on at the same time but i am glad that all these happen before my wedding...if it drags on further then i got to cope with wedding stuff too...at last by march, i shd be more and less settled down liao...i have to relax...go easy on myself....definetely will be able to adapt one...home i will need to work out a schedule arranging the household chores....spoke to daddy abt my worries on coping on the home side...he told me he will help me...then work i guess it is a matter of getting used to getting back to the routine...and the good news is: i wont be teaching right away...first few weeks shd be setting up envt so it will not be moving full swing yet...so at least i have time to get used to being out at work for a few weeks before the teaching and the actual workload comes in...at least there is some kind of breather at first...i need to remain calm and positive..i will be able to do it....dun stress myself out..it will be the same..teaching in a childcare or an enrichment..it is just teaching...home also..i just settle my own stuff first then if got extra time then help out my mil...not compulsory....i need to learn not to push myself too hard...not to stretch myself thin...i can do it...i will be fine...i will be fine.....god will help me through this....