it is never easy staying with ur in laws

i can attest to this...yesterday got a little snubbed by my mil because of washing powder....i added too much...well to be fair she did not yell at me or anything....just chided me a little but of course when it is not ur own mother, u tend to get more sensitive...my mum can screamed at me with curse words and i would not be even bothered...but when it is coming from someone else's mouth, then u tend to be more sensitive...was pretty upset...made me realised once again that once an in law, always an in law...in matter how nice she is, she is not my own mother..i will always be the outsider..i know daddy is caught in between..but he told me that he is neutral....which effectively means that he is on the side of the woman who gave birth to him....oh well, that means i am alone again...so act defiant, i went home by myself after work today...i took a bus to parkway and had some alone time....i went to the library for a drink and read magazines too...nothing exciting u may think but it gave me some time to recollect my thoughts and be myself for once...coz i know after when i go home and step through the front door, i must not act as though i was bothered by the comment my mil made yesterday....i have to act all chummy with her again..i have to put on a fake mask again....daddy is terribly worried...he kept messaging me today...to be defiant, i put on this heck care, i don't know u very well attitude when messaging him...which made him even more worried...he told me not to be upset with his mum over soap....well, who ask him to remain neutral...he must suffer a little...anyway after this little trip to the library, i realised something....spending some time alone is really great...just nothing to do...sip some drink and read books....amazing...i shd do this more often to recharge my batteries...felt really great being alone for once....there is really no place but home.....