on leave..

yes i am finally on my term break..this term has been hectic and i have been waiting so patiently for this break...wanted to do so many things at first but now it seems in the end, i have nothing much to do..other than a trip to the dentist for a follow up check up of my wisdom tooth and a good pedicure, i realised that i have nothing much more to accomplish...so it is now down to just cleaning up my room for cny in advance..which means that closer to cny i should be pretty free...daddy was telling me to just sleep more, rest more...basically just slack around but somehow i find that very hard to do...i just feel it is a waste of time to just lie there and do nothing....sigh..bad for health really if i dun know how to relax....but it is good to be away from all the dramas at work....i do miss my babies though...but hell, i do need time to get away from them....

recently the topic of having babies came up, i was shocked at first when daddy claimed that he did not want to have any kids....he loves kids so i was shocked really when he said that he did not want to have any coz kids very expensive...most importantly i sensed that he was not ready to change his lifestyle for a kid...right now there is loads of freedom...we go prawning nearly every weekend...we go out in the middle of the night...when the baby comes, all these have to really stop and i think that is what scares him....we did have a lengthy discussion about this and in the end, we have decided to still go ahead and try for one....but now the big question is when.....my flat is still not ready so now is a big fat no..when then??...sian...i hate growing up and make such decisions...